beautiful soul

2008-09-25T15:14:00.004+08:00

you make me, me

2008-09-23T04:33:00.003+08:00

:My maternal granny is so damn cute
:I miss my paternal grannys Laksa, Asam Pedas and Murtabak Maggi!
:My growing tembel it annoying the shit out of me
:I think ive gained 2kg within 12hrs
:I still feel like eating but im scared of growing fat
:I would want to say okay or sure but its just so hard.
:I would like to fall in love all over again
:I still have yet to take the train and pass through the whole MRT line without stopping
:I think my mums first daughter is pretty.just so you know im the youngest.
:My growing tembel is STILL annoying the shit out of me
:I miss Radhia JK
:I miss you
:I need to pee but damn lazy to get out of bed
:I think the F1 tshirt is so damn budget
:I wanna date Theo Walcott
:Ice Nine Kills has really nice songs
:I want my pay asap
:I want 6 november to come soon
:I want nano chromatic
:I HATE a***n
:I feel like kicking the ball around
:And my growing tembel is still annoying the shit out of me

yes wth i know:)

RANDOM.

2008-09-23T01:52:00.008+08:00

HELLO:)
I'm feeling extremely happy right now.that means the stomach cramps might attack toms.Good luck to those meeting me toms man!HAHA!just kidding.today was pretty much a good day.met the best friend for sharing session!okay sharing sounds like some rehab shit but sounds better than bitching dont you think?haha.so anyway managed to catch Make It Happen.not a bad movie actually.the dance routines were ouh so HOT!haha.so initial plan was to breakfast with the MI peeps but movie ended pretty late so had dinner with nad and vivek instead then train-ed down to vivo to meet them.enjoyed their company.and its great how we are still close even after almost two years.pretty awesome.haha.ill post pics soon:)

okay I'm feeling super random so the next few paragraphs are most likely gonna be random shits.so bear with me:)

RANDOM PART I
anyway Hari Raya is in a weeks time.ouh so freaking fast ey.
well three things I'm looking forward to for hari raya are:
One,helping my maid cook the ouh so good food
Two,visiting with PING YI peeps
Three,visiting with MI peeps

the three things I'm not looking forward to for raya are:
One,cleaning my room and house
Two,the whats-gonna-be situation on the first day of raya
Three,having to ask for forgiveness.

okay the third one can be on both the three things I'm looking forward to and I'm not looking forward to.
it's simply because:
One,i'll be able to ask for forgiveness cause i know i've done a hell lot of sins.Two,i hate the crying part.even though how hard i try to control my tears, when i see my granny and mum cry ill end up crying.And Three,i don't want to be a hypocrite and ask of forgiveness from someone who i don't actually want to ask from.

ouh wells i've got one more week to be holy.haha

RANDOM PART II
ouh iive been wanting to blog about this but i kept forgetting.
so anyway Lewis Hamilton picture is like everywhere around singapore or maybe town now.
and you know what i think!
i think that he has looks alil like Theo Walcott and Tiger Woods.

if you dont know who is who ive got nothing to say man.
anyway yes?no?haha.

but theo walcott is just sooo haaaaaaaaaaaaa.
just look at this man!he's only 19 mind you.
i so wanna marry him someday.
but that someday will never come of course.
cmon man marry me walcott!HAHAHAHA

RANDOM PART III
i think im gonna get tembel AGAIN!it hurts so badly.
aiyayai!
someone bite it off for me please.
thank you:)

RANDOM PART V
Opera Estate Pri sch kids are weird like that please.
i dont know what they are learning nowadays.
hahahaha.thank god i wasnt like that when i was their age.
skipping school,emo,cutting themselves and skinny jeans?
HAHAHAHAAH!KIDS PLEASE ACT LIKE KIDS!

goodnight humans of planet earth<3

Cant fight this feeling anymore.

2008-09-22T02:35:00.000+08:00

SOYAHS 18th BIRTHDAY

YANI BUNNY
happy people!:)

shalu got so excited that she literally kissed me!haha.

The Soyah signature pose

LOVE IS BLIND

damn it was funshit!haha
anyway i feel so bad for screaming at everyone esp my mum in the afternoon!
ouh wells.
pms and fasting is such a bad combi!haha.
okay im gonna sleep or watch goal 2.

goodnight:)

stare at the sun

2008-09-21T12:28:00.004+08:00

I sit here clutching useless lists
Keys for doors that dont exist
I crack my teeth on pearls

Tear into the history
Show me what it means to me
In this world ya in this world

Cause i am due for a miracle
Im waiting for a sign
Stare straight into the sun
And i wont close my eyes
Untill i understand or go blind

I see the parts but not the whole
Study saints and scholars both
But no perfect plan unfurls
Do i trust my heart or just my mind
Why is truth so hard to find in this world
Ya in this world

Cause i am due for a miracle
Im waiting for a sign
Stare straight into the sun
And i wont close my eyes
Untill i understand or go blind

I know that theres a point i missed
A shrine or stone i haven't kissed
A scar that never graced my wrist
A mirror that hasn't met my fist
But i can't help feeling like

fuck pms fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.
CB
arghh i feel like shooting myself right fucking now!

Goodbye

2008-09-21T01:10:00.004+08:00

I don't want to let you down

I don't want to lead you on
I don't want to hold you back
From where you might belong

You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to say but goodbye

You deserve the chance at the kind of love
I'm not sure I'm worthy of
Losing you is painful to me

one of the best sad songs ever.
anyway soyah's birthday was a blast.
i'm glad she enjoyed herself like how everyone did.
i'll post the pics some other time when i feel less depressed.
damn you pms.
PMS IS NO EXCUSE I KNOW.
but sometimes when you blame it on pms it'll just make you feel way better:)
so its exactly 9 days to raya.
which means 28 more days before school starts.
which also means roughly 46 more days to 6 November.
thats PREEETYYY long ey.
ouh wells.

I really miss Radhea JK.
and Nad can i see you on monday please?pretty urgent.

WE LOVE YOU SOYAH:)

Mixtape.

2008-09-19T05:00:00.005+08:00

Honesty is the best policy
But insecurities rules oneself
I love you-s gives one no reason to love.
May seem nothing compared to 123 others.
Neither looks nor brains
But trust is what matters the most.
And when there's trust, love grows.
I trust therefore i love.

i may not make sense but who cares.
haha.

and so i cant sleep yet.i need to digest my food and I'm not that sleepy.
so i shall wish MY MISS BEAN/KECOH [no.2 after nad of course!haha]

A VERY HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY!

SOYAH BINTE MD NOOR<3

I know i can trust you to not do anything stupid on your eighteenth birthday.but i cannot trust what they're gonna do to you on your eighteenth birthday.hahaha
well longest girlfriend ever!Even though we didn't get to talk/bond much in primary school,except during netball trainings or games, I'm glad we got close in secondary school. And soyah please remember that blue is blue!it is not GREY!hahahaha.love you babe!

ps: mothers are pro like that when it comes to annoying the shit out of you.haha

loveeeeee<3

crazy for your lips.

2008-09-17T15:50:00.010+08:00

had a bestfriend day out with nad.atique just had to be bitchy what.BITCH!hahahaha.

picked nad from school cab to her house then to ehub for movie and breakfast.

4bia.not bad movie but definitely the wrong choice for us.cause it was scary shit.haha.i wouldnt mind watching it again actually but not just the two of us.hahaha.

so anyway tuition was a pain.well actually HEART PAIN.i pity the boy.he's such a good boy.does his work and all but im really really scared for him.thank god i didnt lose my patience yesterday.i really really wanna help him.i wish i can do his exams for him.HELP!haha

okay i really wanna post these pictures cause i really really really had fun that day.hahaha.theres alot so heh!:)

ARNOLDS!

Roadside Camwhoring!:)

this is what you call "kiss my ass"

she loves it i know!haha

scary enough?

album cover in the making.haha

Car Ride!:)

look at how small bila is!haha.

lick my baby!haha

Airport Loving.

royale Radhea<3

coolshitt!HAHA

haha im done.

i so wanna watch oth season 1 & 2 AGAIN!hahaha

1409

2008-09-14T00:01:00.001+08:00

its 14-09-08
ouh wells.
no that the date mattered but its 140908.
HAHA.

i suddenly feel like listening to Always by Bon Jovi.

And I will love you, baby - Always
And I'll be there forever and a day - Always
I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and
The words don't rhyme
And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind
And I'll love you - Always

haha.bye:)

one tree hill

2008-09-15T01:34:00.003+08:00

james lucas scott is the cutest boy ever in one tree hill!

adorable aint he!
lucas and peyton are finally back together!
im starting to pity dan.
carrie deserve to freaking die.
victoria is a BITCH!
and haley is getting prettier every season.
IM SO IN LOVE WITH ONE TREE HILL ALL OVER AGAIN!
:D:D:D

:D:D

2008-09-13T21:59:00.003+08:00

RYAN BABEL IS LOVEEEEEEEE!
final whistle 2-1!

IN YOUR FACE MAN UTD FANS!
i almost teared when babel scored the goal!jumping up and down like some monkey!but i dont give two shits!
YEA LIVERPOOL!
i was so close to go to azman and laugh in his freaking face!but i know i'll just make things worst so i didnt!hahaha.im just so super duper happy!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
WHOOHOOOO!
:D:D:D:D

arsenal and blackburn are playing now and Fabregas looks good with thick hair!SEXY ey!hahahaha.and my boyfriend, Theo Walcott is looking HOT as usual.HAHAHAHA
Van Persie just scored.my bf helped him!awwwwwww.i love you baby!HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

i need to watch my boyfriend play!
bye:D

liverpool

2008-09-13T20:30:00.005+08:00

i just turned on the laptop when i received a text from the bestfriend and this was what she said.

"GOAL!HAHAHAHAHAHA"

i was like SHIT

so i plead my sister to change the channel and what i saw was *sighhhh*

LIVPOOL 0-1 MAN UTD

04:07

Carlos Teves 3rd min

WAH CBBBBBBBBBBB.

HEARTPAIN!

after sometime when my sister decided to be nice and go to the kitchen i switched back and i smiled.

LIVPOOL 1-1 MAN UTD

30:smthg

Wes Brown 27th min(own goal)

HAHAHAHAHAHA IN YOUR FACE BUSH!

i know you dont really care but thats for being bitchy!

gerrard and torres are on the bench!:(

but i think liverpool is playing pretty well.

WOOOHOOOO!

and ouh i know what i want for my birthday!

Limited Edition 'Signature Series' Boxed Shirt

£89.99

okay maybe not

but OMG I WILL MARRY YOU RIGHT THERE AND THEN!

hahahahahahahahaha

okay im gonna watch the 2nd half!

l.o.v.e

2008-09-12T00:31:00.000+08:00

i got bored rotting the whole damn day so i decided to move the remaining items left on my previous table to the new one.so as i was clearing and rearranging the things guess what i found!

THIS!

freaking old school shit man!okay not so old school but its been quite some time.i dont even remeber which comes first but these two are my ultimate most favouritest badges.hahahaha.

ouh man i suddenly miss ncc again.sometimes i do regret not going for clt course when i had the chance to but most of the times maybe not!HAHAHAHAHA.ouh wells

anyway tuition sucked today.you wanna know why?cause i suck at science!i wasnt sure if lightning was a natural form of electricity.but the rest was alright i guess?why cant i just teach maths?damn it.hahahaha.

ouh sunil finally came to his senses and realised that im not snobbish!it fits him better though.haha.but eventhough he can be snobbish at times, he's still one of the nicest people i met in M.I.and sunil dont worry 14 years is not that long!
see im nice!hahaha.and goodluck for your remaining papers:)

okay bye:)

so it is one or two?

2008-09-11T00:06:00.004+08:00

results are out.
i didnt think it would be out this soon.
past two sems i felt like it took forever to be out.
i wasnt prepared to receive the sms so i was pretty shock when i got it.haha
passed everything though.thank god.i actually laughed after reading it.
i didnt know whether to feel satisfied or disappointed.
maybe half of both?
but pretty disappointed for storemgt and farm.
ouh wells.the main thing is that i passed everything.so yea!
so heres the results:
mktres: c+,storemgt: c+,rbb: b,farm: c+,rp1: c+,dinc: b
i still want atleast one damn freaking A.just one before i graduate.pleasee.
hahaha.

anyway hazel and lalitha we have to meet up soon okay.i miss you arses:)
and i think xp should win the the award for the gf of the year.
so loving patient and sweet.
bear is some lucky guy man.
i want a bf like her!
how sayang?hahaha.

alright im off!bye bitches:)

the usuals

2008-09-10T04:48:00.005+08:00

one an a half weeks have past since fasting month and sem hols started.
first week was a drag but this week, its passing pretty fast i must say.
and omg results will be out somewhere around this week too!
surprisingly im not that eager to get them.no idea why.
its either that im weird or weird.hahaha.but hopefully it'll be good ey.
i so freaking need a better GPA.wish me luck okay!hahaha.

anyway did i mention that im giving tuition?haha.yesterday was the first lesson!
a nice adorable primary 5 boy.hopefully he stays like that and not be like the bestfriends tuition kid or i'll just die!
HAHAHAHAHA!SORRY AR BUSH!:):)

i realised that i havent had the usual friday meet ups with the girls and boys for quite some time now.pretty sad actually but i'll you guys soon okay?
and girls!please remember soyahs birthday coming up!
who's planning it ar?how about hafizah md alifi?
babe soyah planned your birthday but you just had to ruin it.so its payback time!
HAHAHAHAHA just kidding!
just as long as not simpang again please!thank you!:)
and i havent seen "handsome" boy for over a week now.
damn you arsehole.stay so far some more!hahahaha

okay this is random but remember this picture?hahaha.

last day of school+FASTING month+uncle ali.RINGS A BELL?

hahahahaha.we were such horrible people in sec school please.call ourselves seniors and so much for setting a good example to the young punks.hahahaha.i think (no offence) they were worst than us.we had an excuse okay!LAST DAY OF SCHOOL AND ITS A GIRL THING(for some).hahahahahaha.damn i miss those days.

alright im done blabbering and digesting my food.

so have a good sleep everyone:)

ouh crap

2008-09-08T06:57:00.002+08:00

two words for the both of you
FUCK OFF!
seriously
disgusting faggots.
you two should fucking fuck yourselves.
you: cant believe you still had the cheek to think youre still part us and cant believe you screamed at her cause we didnt invite you.EEEEEEEE.what the fuck were you thinking?i dont know why she still treats you so nicely after all that youve done to her.i may have your genes but im not an asshole and a hypocrite like you.
and you: stop trying so hard to look innocent in peoples eyes.and youre still living in the talk no action world i see.fickle as usual.

ouh my i realised that you two have so much in common.wow.thats just great.fuckheads.

sorry for the sudden fluctuation of emotion.
its 7.30am and im still wide awake.
i think im thinking too much.well ive got nothing else to do man.
and im annoyed that i have to stay home and see that dicks face for breakfast tonight.
will someone just dick slap him for me please?

too cool

2008-09-08T02:24:00.003+08:00

one of the most irritating song ever!
but my sister and i both cant stop singing the song.

annoyingly funny.
hahahahahahahaha
IM TOO COOL FOR YOU!

You see some are born with beauty, brains and talent
And they got it all
While others have to try all their lives
Still they never get the call
That's the difference between you and me
Obviously
I'm a natural
I'm the real deal, yeah

she's so full of herself la.
but hahahahaha i love the song!
and camp rock is so childishly awesome!
hahahahahha.

goodnight:)

and omg victor is scary!
he's happy to do closing with me cause he wants to know where i live!
he stares at me with an evil smile.
and he wants to take me out for dinner.

and he claims that im his god sister.

WTF?!
OUH GOD!this is freeeeeaky

you see him and you will know why i find him scary.
someone save me pleasee.
im so gonna kill jackson toms!
erghhh

happy someday.

2008-09-06T03:09:00.003+08:00

Let's pretend everything's fine
Put on our fake smiles and keep wasting our time
Let's pretend we're fine
Go out in style and come home in denial
Let's pretend we're fine

she's the one who waits here for you,
she's the one who'll always adore you,
she's the one who sees right through it all.

Someday she'll be happy
will someone tell her when will that be?
Somewhere she lost track of what's right
and now she's stuck on the sidelines
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
not gonna take it any longer
It's time to take back control of her life

she'll take in all in
like how she usually does
cause she knows that
that she'll be happy someday

:)

fuck off

2008-09-06T02:40:00.002+08:00

why?
every year something is definitely bound to happen.
two years back it was me
this year its her
who's gonna be your next target?
arent you ashamed of yourself?
its obvious that everyone HATES i repeat HATES YOU
sometimes i even pity you, i talk to you, i give you respect
but you will never fail to disappoint me over and over again.
you dont even try to make amends
everyone is just so sick of these games.
what is seriously wrong with you?
god gave you a brain for a reason
TO FUCKING THINK!
you'd rather listen to others then your own flesh and blood.
what sort of person are you.
you fucking went over board this time around.
what wrong have she done to you?
disrespect you?
have you ever thought why she doesnt respect you?
have you?
you dont fucking respect her why the fuck should she?
you treat her well actually the whole lot of us like shit.
you dont even have respect for yourself.
"fuck off" are just the perfect words for you.
i no longer have respect for you.
i fucking HATE YOU.

857

2008-09-05T18:14:00.003+08:00

i got lost today!whoohooo!
i took 857 instead of 67.
i realised that the bus was going a different route only when it just entered the expressway
so i ended up at amoy quee camp.
thank god i know the area or i would have just died!
WHY SO BLUR ATIQAH WHY!
maybe cause i felt like shit today.haiya.
but i loved the long bus ride home.
long bus rides alone when you feel like shit are just so nice.
call me weird i dont care.
maybe i should take the wrong bus more often.haha.

:)

picturesssss

2008-09-03T03:46:00.012+08:00

okay its 3.45 am and im bored as hell so i shall post pictures!theres a million and one pics so be prepared.haha:)

feezas birthday surprise part I(coffeeclub ms)

happy 18th hafizah

fana,feeza,shalu<3

feezas birthday surprise part II(amirahs grill)

when yani did something really stupid!haha

fun street girls!HAHA

ouh the rubberband game.super funny!look at their faces!haha

the bestfriend with the long chin.haha

friday night sheesha(mosi cafe)

nadiah anwar niazi<3

shaf:)

xiao ping:)

atique saw a ghost!no she is one!hahaha.LAME!woohoo!
pretty witch kelly

okay im done.told you i was bored!hahhahaha

bye:)

nur hafizah alifi

2008-09-03T01:19:00.006+08:00

okay this entry is long over due but what the hell its the thought that counts.

hahaha.

one of my closest girlfriend just turned 18 last thursday so this entry goes to her

dear feeza,

i really dont know what to say.haha.okay no i actually have alot to say but my mind is so blank right now.haha.seriously speaking you were my first proper friend in ping yi.we went through lots of shits together.i would love to list them down but there are just too many.but the best moments i had with you was in sec one.cikgu fatimahs class was the shit man.eating paper and plastic cause we were damn hungry and of course the old folks exercise we did together in front of the whole class.haha.embarassing but we had tons of fun.ive watched you grow from a super tomboy to this more girlish who even knows how to wear makeup!fyi i still dont know how to wear make up okay.haha.im glad i was there to see you grow.i really want to thank you for all the memories we had in ping yi and making it a good one.i will definitely cherish them and i think without you it would have been very different.just so you know youre very much appreciated.you know i love you feeza:)

this entry may not be as good as the one bush wrote for you but i still love you feeza!haha

md farhan razali

2008-08-31T00:14:00.003+08:00

this entry goes out to my mat bestfriend,

MD Farhan razali

dear farhan,

do you remember how we got close?after knowing that i am mezzars cousin you kept annoying the shit out of me during recess time.everyday without fail you will stand infront of the vending machine and pretend to bring the bottle drink out of the canteen.it was really really extremely annoying please!but im actually glad you did that.cause then i wouldnt have found my bestfriend:)you were there for almost all my major moments.my first puff,my olevels results,heartbreaks and so on and so forth.i know you will still be here for my future major moments like how i know i will/want be there for yours too.so aye please please take good care of yourself when im not around.[okay i know your gf will do that]but please remember that i'll always be here for you okay!and please being legal doesnt mean you can do nonsense shits.you should know your limits la hor.haha!i love you bestfriend!
happy 18th birthday:)

love is in the air

2008-08-30T11:31:00.003+08:00

exams are finally over.
well hols started for me two days ago actually!
somehow i feel like i could have done better but what the hell its over!
hahaha
anyway the past two days have been good.
but last night was great!chinaone was surprisingly awesome!
well i thought it was boring at first but after the band really started playing,the crowd went crazy and the songs they played were awesome.and yea i had a good time!thank you nadiah anwar niazi!
tonight's gonna be another goood night i hope!well it better be cause its for my baby!hahaha

okay i know im kinda late but

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY
MD FARHAN RAZALI[25th august]
NUR HAFIZAH MD ALIFI[28th august]

i love you bitches:)

im off i need to go get ready!

loveeee:)

witch radhia

2008-08-24T21:33:00.005+08:00

ouh ouh before i forget!bush ive got another picture of witch RADHIA!

witchy enough?hahaa
but nothing can beat the sheesha picture la!haha
WITCH RADHIA WITCH RADHIA!
well whether or not you were one in your previous life or you'll be one in your after life, i'll still love you hor!
ey being a witch is cool okay!can marry harry potter!HAHAHAHAHAHA.
the word witch and harry potter just got me reminded of kellys story.damn cock!but she's pretty please!
hahahahahahahahaha:))

freak i need redbull now!